So, I’m a pretty good jammer. But I’m not the world’s best
jammer, and you might think that I’d be a bit better considering the number of
years I’ve spent playing derby.
Conceptually, I understand jamming pretty darn well. I’ve
watched and studied and practiced movements and footwork, breathing through
explosive movements to avoid gassing out, slowly but surely improving my sprint
form, etc. I get tripped up, as many do, when applying these concepts
practically in live jams.
If you ask a top-level player what you can do to become a
better jammer, odds are good that she or he will tell you:
a) Study and practice
b) The power was within you all along.
If you are already doing a) study and practice, then b) the
power was within you all along is one of the single most frustrating things to
hear. Included in this are all the other vague and nebulous clichés about learning
to unlock your inner potential.
Last year, at the Northeast Derby Convention, I attended one
of Smarty Pants’s on-skates classes, and towards the end, she mentioned that
most of us are playing at about 70 percent of our ability. Tapping into the
remaining 30 percent is what will make a skater great instead of merely decent.
Upon hearing this for the first time, I felt empowered and inspired. “How
great!” I thought, because I love numbers, “A clearly delineated percentage of
how much better I can be! And to think, that last 30 percent was within me…
all… along. DAMMIT!”
The idea of having a secret well of power deep inside your
person is a very attractive one, but when you have no idea how to access it,
you will find yourself pounding on the door in frustration.
It wasn’t until an entire year passed that I began to
understand what it means to make an action plan for reaching one’s potential.
But don’t get too excited! It is a process, not a single silver bullet
solution.
At this year’s Derby Convention, I was lucky enough to skate
in the all-star bout with all the other coaches and a select group of
convention attendees. I was shitting my pants with nerves, mostly because I
felt I didn’t belong- but that’s a whole other blog post! In my first jam, I
was in the pack as a blocker, and Smarty was the opposing jammer. Several times
in that jam, I walled up with my teammates and thought, “OK, here she comes.
We’re so ready. She’s going to hit our wall and eat shit. Yusssss.”
She didn’t, though. Each time she hit the pack, I felt a very
sudden impact on the side of my body and looked up in confusion as she skated
away, having broken the entire pack in not more than a second.
In derby and in MMA, when stuff happens to me that I don’t
like or understand, I’ll stay awake thinking about it for many nights in a row.
So I thought about this before going to sleep for a few weeks, and these were
the thoughts and questions that ran through my mind:
Okay, so probably this whole “recruiting power from your
muscles” thing is legit. (This was another of Smarty’s classes, which everyone
should take if the opportunity arises.) But those principles weren’t
necessarily new to me, just framed in a more palatable way.
Smarty’s jamming technique isn’t a secret… Most superstars’
techniques aren’t secret. There’s no “five finger exploding pack” technique
from a temple in China. Why can’t I figure out how to emulate it?
Granted, these folks are in really good shape, but at the
same time, I’m working out quite a bit as well. With men! And iron! And
punching! And sprinting! I’m also committing to learning new skating skills all
the time. I put in the work. I’m not a slouch. Why am I getting stuck so often?
And then it hit me. That last 30 percent? It’s not skill,
strength, or speed. All of those things are the 70 percent that you should
already have. That 30 percent is the confidence and the will to USE the weapons
in your arsenal. And that’s the part that I’m missing. It’s like I’m a knight
who trains all the time and then as soon as I reach the battlefield, I go,
“NOPE. Nope nope nope.”
A prime example happened last night at practice when a
teammate pointed out to me that when opposing blockers try to block me to the
outside, I start to use the Mohawk turn to get out of it, but then halfway
through I turn back around and let them have the position in front of me,
whereas if I had just finished the turn, I’d be free.
So here’s the solution: Take the opportunities, and accept the risks that come with them.
Practice is a safe place to try and fail. So for home season, my goal is to
finish the Mohawk turn. To hit the wall at full speed instead of stopping in
front of them and giving them time to assess my intent and stop me. To take the
apex jump every time it becomes available instead of deciding to go through the
middle instead. And if I fail, so fucking what? That’s the point of practice.
If you decide that this approach is something necessary for
your derby journey, accept that it is a process. I expect to get worse before I
get better, and you should as well. No one will fault you for failing
spectacularly. A person who tries something awesome and fails is still worthy
of respect, especially if the feat attempted is something others are not yet
ready to try. So go get that 30 percent! It is yours, after all, and it was
within you all along.
